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| So I come home from school today. After almost getting into a car accident(thanks dad) and my sister tells me she is leaving tonight. The mini me sister. She has been getting into alot of shit all this week and she just can't take it anymore...I know how she feels and i pity her. BUT I always told her that if she felt the need to run I would run with her. But my only reason for that is because she doesn't know the world. She thinks she does, but she's only 14, she's lived in shelters and all that, but she doesn't know how the world really is. And I want to be able to protect her. So yeah. She has this plan to go stay at this guys house....but she doesn't realize you can't stay at a friends house forever. I'm guessing that if she does go through with the running away, we will be back home before monday. But at least we will have a story to tell. eh. thats pretty much all thats been going on. I can't wait till tonight when I get to "run away" It will be the highlight of my weekend.
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| Well nothing has really happened lately for it to need an update, but eh. I'm bored. I'm sitting at home like always, when I should be looking for a job. Why should I keep trying to find a job if I'm obviously never gonna find one? My hair is all black now so maybe it will be a little easier, but I don't know. I'll take my lip ring out to work, but you can kiss my ass before I ever take out the eye brow. O! its raining outside. I will have to update more later.
Rain is a beautiful thing. The best part about it is running down the street in your underwear screaming "IT BURNS IT BURNS!!!!!"
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| Wow, big news.ok so Saturday night the high school my sisters go to had the homecoming dance. Me and my sisters decided(my idea) to go hang out with people take pictures and see friends and then leave when everyone goes inside the dance. Well we go and we hang out with a few close friends, it was a surprisingly small event, and then someone gets this bright idea. Someone said me and my sisters should go into the dance and have fun. Well, personally I've never been to a dance. yeah i've been to the middle school dances that they hold during school hours and stuff, but thats just cause i had to.
*quick note--I'm going to prom with my best friend, for her prom not mine. She is a senoir this year, I can't wait!!!*
ok, so my sisters and i were like that sounds like fun but we arn't dressed and we don't have any money. So...this guy, good friend of mine, was like well i have $30 and my date has $20 so we'll pay for you. The dance was $15 per person. So it was enough for my sisters and i. So we were like well thats nice but we still can't go in cause we arn't dressed right. Then some teacher comes up and was like "well you 2 -points at my sisters- can go in but you -points at me- can't cause your wearing jeans." So I was like well why don't you all go inside and i will just leave, I would be ok with that, really i would. but they were all like no no no. So this other girl had a shaw and I rolled up my jeans and put the shaw on to where you couldn't see the jeans. and we were good. but then they said you need to take out the peircings AND change your shirt. I was wearing my jack daniels shirt. So...being far from shy, I stripped off my shirt, and flipped it inside out. Then the guy who paid for my ticket let me where his tuxedo jacket.(he is a really sweet guy). And thats how we got in. It was a night to remember, and I thought I would post some pics to show off my oh so nice friends who i don't even remember their names. --I really had a blast though at the dance. I never knew that people actually did the whole group dance together, with everyone doing the same steps and shit. I learned how to do all the dances to all the gangster songs. but yeah, here are the pics!
Left to Right. My gangster sis, ME, the chick who let me use her shaw as a skirt, mini me, some random chick, the chick who went with michael to the dance, and Michael(the guy who paid for me and let me where his jacket)
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| Something has happened to me. I'm not really sure what it is. Its like an awakening of some kind. But before I get all carried away about that, first I have to say what happened thursday. Well. I went to the high school and bumped into some people I met last year. One of which I thought was the....I dunno how to explain it....like "the guy" at school. I call him my second viktor. Like the one guy in school who is the hottest and has the best personality and is so cool that you would never have a chance with. Thats what viktor was to me and now this guy is just like that. But anyways. I hung out with him....we shall call him V2.....I hung out with V2 and this guy who me and my sisters call Tito. Tito is all into me. Kinda weird cause he's not my type, but every time I would hug someone or someone would talk to me Tito would start shit with them. It was funny, but also weird, I've never known anyone like that. Someone so into me they don't want anyone to have me. So I hung out with them until like 5. My school starts at 6 so I knew there was no way of getting there on time. And if you can't get there on time you might as well not go at all. So then me and V2 left and WOW, he lives in walking distance of me. Creepy or what? So we stopped by his house. Then came to mine and smoked some weed in my backyard. Man....He is so freakin cool. But like I said, he is one of those I would never have a chance cause he is to good for me and doesn't think of me like that at all. But damn....if only if only. When I was getting him out of my backyard my step mom drove up, scared the shit out of him, he prolly won't talk to me anymore. But yeah he left and I haven't talked to him since because thursday night he left to go somewhere and won't be coming back till wednesday. -sigh- I feel bad cause my step mom really freaked the shit out of him. But after scaring her I was stoned and she asked me what I was doing home. I lied and said no one was at school. After that I kept laughing cause of how stupid my reason was and she knew I was lying. I felt bad. But everything is settled now. Hopefully I can hang out with V2 more often, I really like him.....
So other then that. Yes the difference. Well I've been high for almost a week straight. I used to do that all the time, but I dunno, this time it just, it opened my eyes. I've always been about living for the moment and all that shit. But I never really knew how much I could be into it. I started thinking about things that don't even matter. I would sit and just think about some trivial thing and it would just waste all my time. I dunno what is really going on. I've had "awakening" moments in my life before and they all faded so I am waiting for this one to fade as well. But this time....I'm not sure. I started thinking about killing people. Like just to see what it would be like. How refreshing it would feel having someones life in your hands and then you just take it all away. Thats what being god is all about. I started thinking about what it would be like if I became a murderer. I can actually see that happening....but the sad thing is...it doesn't scare me. I think it would be the best thing in the world to just put on my head phones and go kill someone so violently and without mercy. And then I was thinking, think about how it would feel if in the end I never got caught. That would just be...orgasmic almost. Usually I scare myself with my horrible thoughts, but I don't know. Some people just need to die, why can't I be the one to kill them? I wouldn't kill for revenge or anything. I'm not sure what kind of people I would kill or why. I would just do it. Just live life to the fullest. See everything and do everything in life. damn. I need some more weed.....
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| Sorry I have posted in a while. Friday I started school. My school is from 6 p.m - 10 p.m. After school my dad picked me up and we went to pick up my best friend. It was awesome. We hung out friday night. Then Saturday we went to the mall, had a little fun. Then came back to my house and got ready for the concert.
FUCKING SLAYER AND MANSON BITCHES!!!!!!
yeah. It was fucking awesome. OMG! My friends who I absolutly love were there. My friends Conner and Collin, the twins from Round Rock. Old friends of mine. They came out here for warped tour this year and I got to see them, and now they came out here to go to the concert. I get a call at like 5 and its conner saying get the fuck down there. The concert didn't start till 7, so I told him I'd leave soon. Me and Scotty got ready, and left, met up with the twins and their friend. And damn, the concert was fucking beautiful. Best thing ever. It was Scotty's first concert, so she was all fucking excited. It was great. Lets see....sunday we hung out till like 2 and then took her home. The sunday night I went out to eat with my grandparents on my mothers side. I really do hate them all and when I'm 18 they will never hear from me again. I will be back in Austin and I will have my cat and Scotty as my family. Then hhmm....monday I went out with my gangster sis. It was weird cause it was the first time we ever went out together by ourselves. We always had someone else with us, so it was weird. But we went down and met with her boyfriend. Well one of them at least, she has 2 boyfriends. I go to my new school with the bf we met with. He is pretty cool, he is also the guy who we snuck to his house in the middle of the night those few times. We went, I hung out with this guy from the high school, and we got high then left after walking to some guys house. The bus took fucking forever to come. Then we called our parents to pick us up when we got closer to our house.I came home. Went to bed. And now its Tuesday morning. I have school today.I'm buzzin and its nice. ok well guess thats it. LOVE EVERYONE
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